I'd like to buy the world a coke.

Hello everyone!

I have just started a group on facebook, which I would like to strongly recommend.

It's a place full of people with a whole assortment of different ages, majors, jobs, careers, areas of expertise, etc. I really think we can learn a lot from each other; also, it is always helpful to "know people" in the field or area that you are interested in. I encourage everyone to check it out, and invite others to join ---the more diversity the better!!

As a P.S.

Today I switch majors to Communication Arts-Public Relations. After commenting on a dear friend of mine's blog about his career choices, I began to examine my own. After looking for a theme, a common thread in all of them, I found out that what I truly want is to make connections with people and help them out as much as possible. I thought about going back to nursing or business management (past majors) or staying with art (current major), but I realized I needed something a lot more diverse than something so specific. I want to be kept on my toes, meeting multi-millionaire CEOs to small business owners, traveling around the world, developing new ideas, making connections, helping all kinds of people achieve their goals.

There is challenge in this profession, which I crave, and need in order to stay interested in it long term. I am completely thrilled that I am finally starting to piece together everything, and look forward to the changes and challenges ahead.

P.P.S.

I am running for Student Senate Freshman Senator this semester. I need 50 signatures from current freshman students, commuter or resident. If you personally are a freshman, that is great! If not, but you know freshman students, I would love the opportunity to meet, and talk about representing them as their class senator. You can get in touch with me anytime at:

330-206-9802 (Cell) and/or my campus mailbox number is #489

Thank you so much for the help, and I hope you will take advantage of the facebook group

"Nice to meet you!"

Tell all your friends! = )

Because I have something to prove.

Something occurred to me tonight.

I was sitting here pondering why I'm here at Malone, if I'm even cut out for this kind of academia, if I should be doing something else with my life, etc.

And something came to mind, something that I have forgotten for quite a while...

I am so much stronger than all this "woah is me" shit.

I am an intelligent, adaptive, creative, independent individual.

Sure, I've been through a hell of a lot. It's helped shape me and my perspective.

What I am trying to say in this soap box blog tonight is that

I am not ever going to give up.

There are going to be rough patches on my journey, but I am going to meet them head on and with a can-do positive attitude. There are many times when I really don't feel like being 100%, times that I am depressed, times when I am severely apathetic. However, I am taking a stand right here and now and saying that those thoughts and that mindset are not going to rule me/my life anymore. They have for far too long, and now I am taking control once more.

This new/old attitude does not only apply to my academics, but in all areas of my life. I want to genuinely back up my words with actions.

And now with all due respect...to all of those who continuously try to make me feel like I'm making a mistake, that I'm not good enough to be doing what I'm doing, and that I have to settle for less than what I want/can have:

SHOVE IT.

As I had said before coming back for this semester, "I have a lot to prove to a lot of people."

And I intend to do just that.

Some things demand to be left in the night.

There is an ancient secret

hidden deep within the night

that causes the heart to tremor

for winged beasts take flight

to prowl about the night

hunting down sacred souls

to cast into the flames of Hell

Join us in the hatred of forsaken grace

an unholy face

pale eyes to see the screaming bleeding lives

of those who remain in flames

they cannot be saved from the relentless night

consumed with unatainable escape

from their inevitable fate

The demons torment their prey

with false hope of freedom

with the torture of waiting to be taken

never knowing when it will happen

but knowing there is no redemption from it

Time is running out...

Hush now, child

do not weep

tears cannot save you

hush now, child

it will all be over soon

no more fear. no more pain.

Hush now, child

the hunters musn't hear

they shall come soon enough

cloaked in black with swift attack

Hush now, child

do not fear eternity

it waits for us all

Hush now, child...

sleep now...dream of the sunset on the placid waters of Eden

of the sweet gentle breeze on your weary body

rest there, sweet child.

Rest in the quiet glade

breath in the kind air

listen to the trickling water off the smooth stones

Rest here, child.

Rest in peace.

Call it education.

Hello everyone!

This is my first blog, so "pardon the dust" along the way as the contstruction takes place.

As my first topic, I would like to discuss Growing up.

This is something that has been on my mind in a way for the past couple of days. I am coming to realize that 'where you come from' as in your past, your family, your genetic compostion plays a very important role in a person's life. Up until quite recently, I thought that A) My history did not affect me in the slightest, and it was just random bits of trivia to make vague reference to, or B) If indeed it did affect me, it was something that I could simply ignore or wish away. As it is turning out, neither of those theories seem to be the case. Part of becoming a functioning, independent human being is to get to know yourself; once you come to terms with your past, you are one step further to that goal. By delving into all the events and memories of your life thus far, you will be able to understand things about yourself that never really made sense, or that you just wrote off as "that's just how I am". Now I am not saying that this process will necesarrily be pleasant or even easy, as many of us hold onto our own demons of hurt, regret, and dissapointment linked to our past. Please proceed with caution, and only if you understand it is going to be a lengthy, trecherous endevour. This is not to say that everything about "what makes you, you" is going to be negative components. There is going to be extremely bad, extremely good, and things somewhere in between that you will have to work through and sort out in your own mind, and in your own heart. If at all possible, share this experience with a close, trusted friend who can not only listen, but give you an outside perspective to whatever situation or memory. As a side note, I want to mention something else: growing pains are inevitable. No matter how mature you think yourself to be, or how mature you can act, occasionally slipping back a notch or two is normal and to be expected during the process of growing up. Look back at yourself 5 years ago. Chances are you have a much different perspective on everything in life than you did then. 5 years from now, in retrospect, you will see how much your mindset has changed from then until the current day. Be kind to yourself during this time of expansion, trial and error, learning, failing, experimenting, and growing. Just as a child must learn how to interact with the rest of the world, we must also be open minded enough to realize that we don't have all the answers, that right now is temporary, and that there is always something more to learn.

Thank you for your time, and I sincerely hope this has helped in some small way.

Until next time...au revoir.